When Awakening Happens, the Conscious, Deliberate Journey Begins

I have written a lot about self-awareness and coming to know core Self through awakening to our own heart. I am not one to care much about quantifying anything; I’m more of a quality of life kind of guy. However, between my morning pages and this nightly medium.com post — over 230,000 words. Just sayin’. Oh, yeah, then there are the two extra nightly Instagram posts for which I write captions, probably another 300 words per day for about 200 days.

Why do I bring this up? Well, that’s a lot of writing, and for me, that’s a lot of emotional investment and a lot of time. I still didn’t answer why, did I? Okay, here it is. When I came to that point of a fuller awakening, an enlightenment in which my heart and I engaged in a conscious relationship…Wait, a bit more background.

I have made the point before that I’m not talking multiple personalities here; it’s just a realization the desire so many have, I had, for knowing who we really are and what our purpose is here. Those answers are bound up within us. That realization, epiphany, happened to me in an evening. I have also made the point that my heart, many times over the years, spoke, but I was slow on the uptake. In one sense, therefore, the epiphany had been brewing, but it bubbled up in one night.

That night a few years ago my heart made it clear, spoke to me, audibly in my inner person in a definite voice from a definite source I had only heard in whispers, but I knew then: I am a writer. Guess what happened. I had to write. A writer writes. That was, is, my heart.

At first, I was working to develop another business having little to do with writing. I wrote, but sporadically. I wrote, but when I felt like it. I didn’t write every day. I thought I had to think about it — a lot. What I needed to do was write, a lot.

In the process of writing over these past few years, I have written other works, not the least of which is my novel, The Fellowship of the Heart. I am currently working on Chapter 7. My original novel had 24 chapters, so I am making progress but not as much as I envisioned. (Want a laugh? I had planned on having it completed by the end of September! Lol!). In addition to letting longer-time followers know where I am, I wanted to reiterate that all my posts revolve around or at least derive from concepts in the novel; all my posts are themed. It’s not like I thought, “Hey, I’m going to do it this way.” No, I listened to my heart, and voila!

And here is my ultimate point this evening: Self-awakening, at least the fullness of it, usually happens in moments of time. But what doesn’t happen quickly is the development of core Self and life Purpose in terms of vision and then bringing that vision to life. That is not a sudden revelation. That is the journey that the revelation initiates, and it is our reason for being here; it is what will give us those blessings of feeling significant, fulfilled, loving, and loved.

Yes, 500,000 words later, I’m getting it. Yeah, I know that’s nothing compared to Stephen King or authors like him, but hey, I’m new to the game!

Henry David Thoreau, in Walden, said, “…I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.” Deliberate, daily, planned action brings visions to reality. Our dream, passion, vision of expression of core Self that comes often in an epiphany must be walked every day, lived every day according to our personal truth. No shortcuts.

I hope you see why knowing core Self and becoming self-aware, is so critical to a meaningful life. Knowing our Heart, holding those conversations, fellowshipping with the Heart, keeps us centered, focused, and solid in building our vision based on personal truth. It keeps us sane and progressing.

We each have an astounding, amazing, thrilling Self; anyone or anything telling us otherwise is either our own ego or others’ egos. Don’t buy it. Live out You. You need to, and I need you to. This world needs You.

​Get to it, please!