The amazing array and complexity human beings exhibit as a species almost deny analysis. Almost. I delight in thinking about it.
The more I think about the range and intricacy of our behaviors, the more I see patterns. Of course, this is nothing new to mental health professionals.
However, I have an inveterate need to reduce things to concepts I can grasp, to some simplicity from which the complexities can arise. It’s like the grand unified theory of physics, which, in simplistic language, unifies the major forces, dynamics of the universe and demonstrates that all of the complexities we observe in the physical universe arose from a unity of these forces: electromagnetic, weak, and strong. The theory basically says that at one point these forces were unified; they were not yet distinct. As energy states dropped, the forces differentiated and the wonderful actions and interactions of the physical universe developed.
In my upcoming booklet, the unifying forces that explain human behavior derive from two dynamics, two emotional and psychological considerations that we all begin with. As we develop — both as individuals and a race — the wide variety of behaviors are related to these two forces. If we reconcile these forces, we can experience what we came here for: happiness. If we don’t, problems ensue. Witness the wide range of mental and emotional illnesses and social, political, and economic problems.
I have dealt with this Grand Unified Theory of Humanity in this blog and in my booklet, but I need to put the ideas into a form I can grasp, like the concept of reducing life to the least common denominator. It’s a cool mathematical metaphor for looking at anything complex that has common factors.
If you have read my work for any length of time, you know what those two dynamics are: self-identity and life purpose. When we discover who we are and create what we want to do, we can experience happiness, and we can create an infinite variety of happinesses. When we fail to reconcile these forces in interaction with life, we will experience a wide variety and varying depth of expression of negative emotions.
Who am I, really? Who and What am I at my deepest core? What is my purpose here? What should I do with my life to experience happiness?
Now, if it were simple, life would be boring and we would miss out on experiences created by the tension between knowing the answers to those questions and not knowing, just like the interactions of the physical forces in a lower energy state creates the physical universe. When we don’t know, we explore, discover, and create many wonderful effects and works.
And the tension, the desire to know, comes from the conflict of Ego and Heart, the two operating systems of our soul-mind-body complex. But, wow, oh wow, do those opposing dynamics ever create tension. We’re not like physical systems. The biochemical reactions in our bodies combined with our abilities to reason, feel, act, and react provide some intense experiences.
And that brings me to the main point I wished to discuss, taking these ideas from impersonal theory to what I lived last night — an illustration of the two operating systems at work within me.
I have awakened to Heart, but I don’t lose Ego because of that. I do seek to minimize it, though, to eliminate it’s operations in places it doesn’t belong.
I received an email response from someone I sent my booklet to. When I read the response, I allowed Ego to take off running. I even knew it, but it just felt good because Heart was not going to let me get away with being offended. So my Ego, instead of lashing out in anger, did what it knows is most effective with me: “Oh, no, she only read a few pages and found it boring so she asked me for a two sentence summary so she wouldn’t even have to read the rest.” Boom! Poor pitiful me. All these thousands of hours spent on writing over the last year and shot down in one fell swoop: loss of self-confidence, doubting, faithlessness. All Ego.
Then, I curtly addressed my Heart and heard the responses. Thoreau was thrown in the mix: “The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation.” Heart: “Are you going to give up? What will you do to be happy? What are your plans? Or will you just settle for a life resigned to disappointment?”
Shit, I just wrote about this in the last week or so! I answered Heart. I had no plan. I am a writer. I created this purpose of communicating about discovering Self and creating life Purpose to be happy. I began to address my friend’s questions, and it freakin’ helped me.
For anyone who doubts the energies of life and the resultant law of attraction, guess what was in my email inbox this morning in one of my daily quote messages. Thoreau: “Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.” He didn’t say to do this only when others approved of my dreams or directions. And I know it’s true from my own Heart.
So, I had to face the questions I wrote this morning: “Who am I, and what makes me happy? What gives joy and delight in work every day? How far will that take me? If that discovery of my dreams and living life in joy and happiness I imagine is my least common denominator, then I need to do that — regardless of anyone or anything. If I don’t, the formula of my life breaks down.”
In the mathematical concept, infinite numbers are possible beginning with a least common multiple. Infinite joys of life are possible when we have our answers to the two big questions — AND then keep living them.
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!