I am ecstatic! I wrote more than fifteen words in The Fellowship of the Heart today. This post won’t reveal anything super significant, probably, unless your Heart has prepared you for it. However, I will share some of what I wrote and some of what my Heart said to me about that.
One of the messages I have received over the last few days is this: Hearts know things. My Heart made it clear to me this morning that I have to focus on my novel and my ebook. Oh, I will still do my posts — not stopping on 261 — but my efforts in other things will be on an when-I-have-time basis.
Sometimes, when I’m overwhelmed, my mental and emotional states open the pathway for Ego to start flowing through that old, bypassed circuitry, and it is one lousy-ass feeling. I’m convinced it can even produce physical symptoms, but that is one advantage of being self-aware. I know when this sort of thing starts happening. The first sentence of negativity, exasperation, resignation, or blame that issues from me is a siren, warning me of what’s coming. Over.
Those who have not awakened to self have no such warning system. Ego rationalizes the negativity, justifies it, and even encourages it sometimes, unless it’s advantageous to call it off. It all depends on how a situation makes you look or feel. Do you need sympathy and pity or recognition and importance? Ego will fill the order, but ultimately will leave you continuing to question the meaning of your life and feeling empty and joyless.
That brings me to the portion of my writing I will share with you tonight from the novel. Anne Lafarnge, who has her new position as a senior associate in an engineering firm, is speaking with one of the younger engineers on her team, Kathryn Frank.
“Okay. Listen, Anne, I know you’re a lot more involved in other things now, but I really don’t have anyone else I feel very close to, except Ed. I still feel as if something else is going on, and I’m simply saying I want you to know I’m aware of it and I care. That’s all”
Anne spoke slowly. “Thanks, Kathy. Now, what about the composite material research and specs.”
“Looks like we can come in well below cost compared to standard materials, and we know that because we have already done a rough estimate of standard materials that will be required. It’s preliminary, but Ed and I really wanted to know if there would be any significant difference.”
“That sounds great, but how much are we talking about?”
“The composites will cut the material cost alone by close to thirty percent. We have some idea, very crude at this point, of what it would do to the labor. It will probably be at least that much.”
“Okay, this is the sort of information I was hoping for. I…” Just then Anne’s H-com buzzed. “Shit, Kathy, I’ve got to go. You guys have already done an awesome job. I would like you to get the work-up on the standard materials. Let’s see if we can’t get…” Her device buzzed again. “Shit. I don’t even have time to talk. Would you like to have a drink with me after work.”
“Sure, Anne. Just let me know when and where.”
Anne grabbed her computer and left Kathy in her office.
Kathy sat there for five minutes, staring at Anne’s pictures strung across the credenza behind her desk. She noticed pictures of Anne and Eric, laughing, exploring, holding hands. She also noticed there were no pictures of a child.
Kathy stood up to leave, but she walked to the credenza and looked closely at one picture in particular. Eric smiled with his whole being, blue eyes almost laughing. Anne’s red hair was tousled as she peeked over Eric’s shoulder from his back, her mischievous green eyes winking at the photographer.
“She’s different now. I can see it in her face, her body language.” She began to leave, but something urged her to turn and look at the photo one more time. “It’s more than that, isn’t it. She’s just not happy. I don’t know how I know it, but I do.”
The words were very distinct in her mind: Hearts know things.
Hearts really do know things. Our Heart is the deepest essence, core Self of Us. As that small part of eternal Spirit dwelling within, it not only knows our personal needs and offers us as much guidance and insight as we seek, but also it knows parts of life energy fields all around us. We can, to different extents, sense things about the Universe, including others, like Kathy’s heart in the passage.
I take real comfort in this. Yes, Hearts know things, and we receive all we need through Heart. Not a bad deal since Heart was part of factory original equipment!
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!