This afternoon I wrote about some seemingly minor life experiences today. Do you ever have days like that, you know, days that feel insignificant?
Early this morning, I couldn’t engage my mind or soul in my writing. I felt frustrated. I also felt Ego working its own brand of magic — self-doubt, defeatist programming of my thinking. Yeah, Ego doesn’t stand much of a chance any more. Oh, I still do things many wouldn’t approve of, many would berate or judge me for, but the thing is, I don’t care anymore.
I evaluate work, choices, and actions I make, but I attach no judgment, the condemnation type, to it. Almost all such thoughts in the past stemmed from viewing myself through the eyes of others or taking their ideas of good-bad, right-wrong onto myself. Why? That was Ego-stupidity. But this morning, why did it seem I couldn’t get a message from my Heart?
Okay, I took a detour. Ego-magic is black magic, I guess. However, Heart-magic can be experienced every day, in the simplest, most mundane situations. So, when I couldn’t write this morning, I progressed from frustrated to restless. I know myself well enough to know when I get like that, I need to do something physical. To my surprise, my Heart had been speaking to me: get up off my ass and move. To do what?
This nagging thought kept cropping up. I felt like I needed to get the washer and dryer back in the laundry/mechanical room. Last Wednesday, Thursday, and then yesterday we had two men working here all day putting in a new heating-cooling unit. It took them longer than they thought, but it was a hard job and they were excellent. In fact, we ended up drinking a couple of craft beers together before they left. But one of the guys had arranged for a county inspector to come today — this afternoon.
Honestly, the dryer electric receptacle in the room is “iffy,” probably not in county code compliance. I’m not sure, but I didn’t want to risk it. During my restlessness this morning, when I thought I wasn’t hearing Heart, that kept coming to mind. Out of the blue, I jumped up, making my dogs jump, ran into the garage, got pliers, took off two doors to make way for me to move the appliances back in, and muscled them into place. My Heart had been speaking to me: “Move the things back into place. Plug in the dryer and get it off of your mind. Then, write.”
I had been planning on asking a friend to help because the area makes for a tight squeeze and the damn washer is heavy enough to be awkward to move by myself. Of course, I moved them out alone, but I don’t even have a furniture dolly. I did it — couldn’t even see the plug. (By the way, it’s perfectly safe, just not pretty!) No sooner had I finished, which settled my soul, made a cup of coffee, and sat down to write when…Ding-dong! The inspector at 8:45 in the morning for the afternoon inspection. There it was, the encouragement I had chosen to feel for the day and the magic of my energy field, which I address every morning. I was encouraged that Heart had been speaking to me in an unaccustomed way.
This story is just standard everyday life, but I knew the magic of it. I experienced more magic, too, but ultimately, I ended up writing in my journal and here at my computer. I have enjoyed fellowship with my Heart in this extra way today. However, I heard more.
This is my update on my ebook. I am reviewing it with attention to not only mechanics but also voice. A non-fiction work needs voice, and I want it to be me. I have heard the clear voice of my Heart to focus on the writing. Focus is a word I hear often. When I seem to be making little progress, my Heart prods me: “Focus, Michael, focus!” When I’m not sure what to do in those times I start feeling overwhelmed, the first words I hear, something to do before anything else, are “Write, Michael, write.”
I learned today that Heart helps in the energy field around me. I didn’t know why, but I was alerted to that inspector showing up four hours early. I feel like a very common day yielded blessings for me in raising even more awareness of my magic. I’ll take it.
Blessings to you in understanding yourself, fellowshipping with your Heart, and learning your own magic!
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!