In my “Afternoon Pages” post, I described my personal experience in fellowship with my Heart this morning as I sat outside. Three of my totem birds who often lend me their energy visited me. I won’t describe the specifics as I did this morning; however, I will share the message.
Developing personal interpretations from such animals with whom we identify requires Heart-energy. Ego can misinterpret and misdirect almost anything. Heart will connect us with the Universe and encourage us. Oh, it will challenge us, too, but Heart always challenges us to succeed, not to fail, not to capitulate, not to conform. Heart challenges us to forge ahead in confidence and faith and Self.
This morning that is what I experienced. After listening to the birds, receiving their energy, processing it in peace and calm, I heard the words, the message of my Heart to me:, “Relax. Relax into Me. Release self. Relax into Me.”
Whenever such times occur, it is our responsibility to process and interpret that which we experience. And that should not be daunting or doubting. We are, at core Self, Spirit. Our responsibility is to Self, no one else. And the message to me was to relax into that essential Self, Spirit.
Relaxing means releasing, releasing all those Ego-charged, Ego-fueled aspects of Self, the shallow, petty thoughts and actions that create isolation, separation, despair, or even delusions of grandeur. Therefore, when I say we need to make meaning of what we experience, of what we observe and sense from Nature, we need to know our own Heart, know Self, and have nurtured fellowship with our own Heart. The whole Universe opens to us when that occurs.
What I didn’t mention this morning was the immediate association I had as I processed the visitation of the birds. It was with Paulo Coelho’s novel, The Fifth Mountain. I would point out here how Heart uses total life experience, all those collections of knowledge and emotions and thoughts and studies, and then, Heart sparks the connections that allow us to create, which is our very essence.
All of our experience, our life, can be for our own Purpose. It’s always for purpose, but the blessing and reality and fulness and significance of our life is when we acknowledge Heart and allow Heart to be our primary operating system in order to live our own created Purpose.
Anyway, when I thought of The Fifth Mountain this morning, here are some of the connections I made. I should add that Ego has kept my mind and soul churning about finances and others’ expectations, and even though I know better, Ego is still a part of me. When all that chatter starts and runs, it can create inner turmoil, hence, the message to relax and release. Relaxing always requires releasing those things that get us up tight. Release the negative, busy energy and allow Spirit, peace, love, light, calmness. State these positive emotions, and allow Heart to spark those. However, we need to put ourselves in the mindset and setting to do that — like purposefully going into Nature to listen, observe, sense, and learn.
When I thought of release, I focused on those things that are causing tension. I needed to be free of those to relax into Heart, Spirit. In The Fifth Mountain, I have connection: “This was freedom; to feel what the heart desired with no thought to the opinion of the rest…” Freedom is found in following Heart. Forget the rest; disregard them for you can never love them or provide for them or enrich them if you are a slave to their opinions. Ego leads us to such beliefs. Heart frees us.
And then when I get to the point of exhaustion as I have the last two weeks, Ego spurs those doubts. Have I chosen correctly? If I have, why am I feeling like this? See, at least I know that’s Ego working, but that doesn’t mean I don’t feel such emotions at times. Again, Coelho’s novel addresses such to my soul in simplicity: “Sadness does not last forever when we walk in the direction of that which we always desired.” And then, when over-analysis kicks in, constant, churning thoughts, I hear “Stop thinking about life and choose to live it.” Relax into Me and release the Ego ruminations.
I hope this illustrates how we can experience Ego-conflict and use those resources of life and the amazing, magical creation around us along with all who we are to resolve the challenges, to face the conflict, and to know Heart-energy. It propels us forward in Heart-purpose — not Ego-urgency or doubt.
However, I welcome such times; they only increase my joy in living my purpose: “Blessed are they who go through moments of indecision.” Other words of Coelho in the novel harmonize with that which I have said: “There are things that are brought into our lives to lead us back to the true path of our Personal Legend. Other things arise so we can apply all that we have learned.”
I know that to be my truth; otherwise, I would not be finishing this up at 11:50 p.m.
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!