You know what has helped me feel better the last few days? Several things, really, but one in particular is the fact that I don’t accept self-judgment, shit that is still contained in some old Ego capacitors that are sending out impulses through old circuitry, although that power is fading. If I don’t accept self-judgment, I sure am not going to accept the judgment of others. Life actions, for me, are not primarily about judging them to be right or wrong.
Why did this even come up for me? Mainly because I feel I am not making the sort of progress I set for myself about my writing, especially the last two weeks. Yesterday, I gradually wore down to self-disgust by the end of the night. Not good. Never good. Always old ego. And any rationalization of that by saying there’s some sort of reason for it is ego, too.
However, that doesn’t mean some dynamic is not operative giving an opening for Ego-voice. I addressed that with my heart this morning, a productive meeting of my mind and soul with Heart. I brought up the issue, and I was forced to consider the resistance I have had to an area of my life, one which has interfered with me expressing core Self.
That specific thing is immaterial right now, but I had to admit I resisted it, which is what gave Ego the opportunity to wear me down yesterday. It wasn’t severe, but it was one of those challenges helping me to grow. And Heart brought me to the point of the concept of intention, which follows rather nicely with the things I’ve shared recently. I certainly didn’t plan it that way, though.
Intention requires attention. It cannot be a whimsical, brief response if it’s to be significant and authentic. I needed to evaluate, clarify the issues involved, delineate my responses to those issues, and declare my intentions — carefully formulated intentions, to the Universe in an act of co-creation. Attention and energy flowed to this, I assure you.
Again, I went through this because I realized I was resisting an action I need to release in order to more fully live life Purpose, to express the specifics in my life of the framework I have shared concerning the foundations of the Grand Unified Theory of Humanity. Awesome, but some pain involved.
Once I stated my intentions to the Universe, I made Spirit co-conspirator in my plot — my way of looking at it. I know the law; if I do my part, the Universe does its part. If I don’t, then the Universe has nothing to do — no judgment involved.
I think about two quotes, one I always invoke when considering the concept of judgment. First, though, is a more learned but no more valid conclusion from Carl Jung: “It all depends on how we look at things, and not on how they are themselves.” How we look at things is what assigns judgment, and why would I do that to myself? Shakespeare’s character Hamlet observes to his friends, “There is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so.” I think I want to live in the love and light of the Universe, and for me, that means not thinking in a judging way but acting on my intentions. Acting on intentions provides an alternative to self-judgment.
The Universe will work its magic if I work mine!
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!