Greatness, Heart-greatness, rises from within. It isn’t like Ego-greatness which is garnered from without. The great question is this: Do I want a shining soul or a shining trophy?
I take soul. The reality is many who have received trophies, accolades, or recognition of any sort, those who we know as “the greats,” many times gained those awards because they chose a shining soul. They had no idea when they worked, day in and day out, every day of the week for years on end, that anyone would ever know their labors or the intent of their soul, their Heart. They only knew that they had to live their Heart-energy, Heart-prompts, and that’s what drove them through those days, months, and years of grind — just being true to Self, living personal truth, making sure they did what they knew was Maya or Albert or Abraham or whoever you can come up with.
My reality abides in this. I do not know many thousands upon thousands of things. A few things I know well, but I do not know where the path I am on will lead. I do not know if I will derive income from my writing. I don’t even know right now if I have enough talent that anyone would want to actually pay for anything I write. I don’t know if I can overcome the fear of rejection or failure. I think that’s what holds me back from finishing my books. But who knows? I don’t.
I know, however, that if I quit, if I don’t grind out my Heart-impulses, which are simple in concept but not easy to execute, I will regret it. It takes effort and smarts and conscience and love, most of all love. I have encouraged myself and others to discover and know Self. Once that occurs, we should love Self enough to create a purpose that expresses that loved Self to the Universe and to one another. That sounds beautiful and sweet, in some ways, but when we face the reality of what that means on a daily basis, sweet isn’t the word that comes to mind.
It’s planned, executed, often grinding work, but it’s without any hint of stink or bitching, because we are living our Heart, living what makes us happy, gives us joy in the midst of sweat stains on our t-shirts. That may mean not measuring up to the Ego standards of society, though. It may mean if Ego has any play in what we are doing, we may have delusions of grandeur, that money and fame are the ultimate rewards, and many equate those with greatness.
Greatness comes through executing our Heart-energy in our daily lives. For me, that’s writing, writing when I question and doubt, writing when — as today — I could easily choose not to because I am sick, writing when I think I’ve offered some content of value and virtually no one responds in any way to it. The greatness comes in performing my Heart-purpose, even when my own Ego or the standards of an Ego-driven society says, “Nope. No greatness at all here.”
So, at the end of a long day when it appears I didn’t get much accomplished, nothing in particular, I look back and examine those nothings, and realize I walked in my truth, and each of those nothings signify greatness.
In fact, many days may not see much response or recognition, except the encouragement of my own Heart, doing what I know to do with absolutely no inkling of what tomorrow may hold. I can guarantee you one thing: you will never regret that. Dramatic responses to some heroic, talented, inspired performance does not usually mark greatness; most of the the time we show our greatness by pushing through the grind of things that may appear as nothing in particular.
P.S. I wanted to write about William Least Heat Moon and his book and a chapter from it I referred to earlier, “A List of Nothing in Particular,” but I really am sick to my stomach! Maybe tomorrow, eh?!
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!