Ever heard anybody say, “I feel like I’m wasting my life…”? Now, fill in the ellipsis: “…at this job. …with this person. …” Maybe you’ve said something like this, or maybe at some point you’ve expressed you feel like you are supposed to be something different, something more, or perhaps there are regrets about a path you didn’t pursue, a relationship you let slip away, or that “road less traveled,” “The Road Not Taken.” I have felt some of these things at different points in my life.
These ideas mask a deeper truth, the truth of who we really are. The source of these feelings spring from an undiscovered, unknown core Self, one who is there screaming, one whose voice longs to be heard. When we feel like no one knows or sees or hears the true us, the reason is simple: we haven’t discovered that core Self. That true, wise essence of a person is bound until we consciously hear the sort of sayings above, call on our Heart, and listen and choose to discover and truly begin to live. That core Self is powerful, too, but like the proverbial genie in a bottle, Self can’t express power until we free it.
That smothered, voiceless Self is the energy bringing the searching questions to our conscious mind. Last night I referenced some of the effects of not responding to those whispers of desperation or sometimes laments of despair: depression, mental and emotional illnesses, and symptoms of these that spread to society when a critical mass live in Ego and not Heart.
Ego, either our own or others’, prevents us from pursuing those great questions of life for ourselves. “Oh, don’t get too crazy here. You know you need that job. How could you walk away from him or her? You need stability in your life. Blah. Blah. BLAH!” And when we cave to those ideas and brush aside and continue to silence Heart, the effects intensify. Perhaps the worst effect is that of resignation to our lot in life, resignation Ego happily helps us to rationalize into something stoic and philosophic. And the screams of Self are stifled once again.
When we buy into others’ purposes, either deceived into a false, happy acceptance (“Oh, I just love this”) or apathetically resign themselves to their false fate, we can expect the final outcome to be any of myriad outcomes: self and/or other destructiveness, decadence, despair, and too many too list. A choice is given here: a false life fed by Ego or a personal truth nourished and grown by Heart. We need to create our own life Purpose, design a vision to express it, and engage in a detailed mission to carry it out.
Wait! That sounds like a company or something. It is. It’s the company of core Self, with Heart as CEO, and our own mind and soul as the one who will carry out the mission. The business of core Self must come before any other — IF we want to know significance, fulfillment, happiness, and a sense of personal purpose, of living truthfully because we are living our own truth.
The question is, then, what do we want? Do we want to slog on in life, knowing we have all at some time or another heard the questions of the opening paragraph in our own mind and soul, or do we want to free the genie of core Self, give that Self voice and opportunity to express all of the life energy existing in our Heart? How would it feel to know that we, personally, are making a difference in this world, a difference that engenders peace, prosperity, progress, and love?
Denial of core Self creates absolutely none of those things. Denial of core Self satisfies the Ego, leaving the true Us unsatisfied, screaming full force with no vocalizations as it sometimes happens in dreams. Voicelessness, not being heard, understood, or valued forces people to live in emptiness. Not so good.
We always have questions to ask and answer if we know our own Heart. We can be, if we consciously choose and practice it, to be in the fellowship of the Heart on a daily basis.
Choices, my friends, choices.
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!