This afternoon, I read through my ebook manuscript, making some revisions. I really have no idea how it may be received. I do know, however, I reject all the Ego questions I have been hit with throughout today.
Oh, yes, I have experienced those Ego doubts as they infiltrate my mind, which in turn affects my soul and emotions. How does Ego work? To try and protect me from disappointment, my Ego whispers those little nagging thoughts: You can’t afford to pay an editor and other professionals. Do your followers even understand what you have been writing the last two weeks? All this time and you might be able to give away 50 copies. Do you really think you will sell ANY? Quit all this, get a haircut, and find a job. You need proof? How does a grand total average of maybe 50 or 60 “likes” a day sound?
Okay, I actually allowed my Ego to feed me those questions. Now, here is the reality of the fellowship with my Heart. I knew I would write those and I can switch instantly to Heart. I can choose how I will feel, create it. How?
I feel the way I intended to feel: accomplished, happy, inspired, thrilled, and resolute. My writing, as the largest part of my Vision and Mission, yields those emotions. I know it’s my best expression of love to this world, no matter who reads it, no matter when or if it gets formally published, no matter what Ego or others think. It’s my best expression of love because it’s the offering of my core Self.
Having made this point, because I want to be a writer, I am not naive. I have made connections and learned some things. Publishing and marketing present new challenges and must be done — if I believe what I produce has value. It does. Therefore, this week I will be preparing the text to send to my editor. While I plan on finishing this, I have no sense of urgency because I choose a settled peace and love as my foundational emotions. I will be publishing!
As a writer, I find finishing the writing part of a project to be disruptive to my emotions. Why? Because like Ulysses of Tennyson’s creation, “It little profits” that I stop my primary purpose to focus on aspects of publishing I do not know very well, so I leave those to professionals who have their Purpose in those areas of publishing.
Me? “I cannot rest from travel,“ the travel of exploration and discovery and sharing my findings and my creations in my writing or speaking. Part of the magic and miracles in my life seem to center on recognizing those wonderful energies of life all around.
However, I hear that Ego urge to rest, to take some time. I’m sure I will feel that, too, when I hit a full year of posting every day. However, I do not want to settle in. I thrill to generate new and fresh material to help others see, discover for themselves, see things far beyond what I do, see what miracles and magic are bound in the depths of the eternal Heart.
Even though this is very personal to my situation, I think the ego temptations may exist for everyone in terms of self-doubt. If so, be encouraged: Heart responds instantly when we call. Listen, consider, and execute Heart counsel. Can’t go wrong.
While I do not know outcomes, I do know myself. I have no intention of either giving up or even easing up. Again, it’s not a sense of urgency; I love doing this. How about doing anything else? “How dull it is to pause, to make an end…” Onward and upward!
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!