“Wow! I did it! I spoke with my Heart! I had a real conversation. Smooth sailing from here on out!”
Once anyone has established a relationship with their own heart, life is not a done deal. That’s when real living begins. That’s also when real challenges begin.
Coming to know I had spoken with that deepest part of me, core Self, exhilarated me. In my experience on that August night over four years ago, my yearning to awaken to self extended to my purpose in being here on this earth. I think it’s fairly normal when dealing with either of those questions that the other is implicit, consciously or subconsciously. Who am I? Why am I here?
I learned something crucial that night, and it wasn’t the ego part of me. My Heart spoke to me, urged me, and taunted me a bit to decide what my life Purpose from then on would be. The ego inclination and society-modeled pattern depends on a number of possibilities for determining this.
Many hold the widespread belief that life Purpose is something that has been pre-determined and you either find it or you don’t. I am not bashing any religion, but to make people dependent on God having mapped out a plan becomes unreasonable. Why would God do that? Why would God say, “I know what you’re supposed to do, but you have to hunt around for it.” Nope, don’t buy it, even with the provision that it’s good for us to be dependent and work through challenges and those sorts of concepts.
Of course, because we need purpose, because we want to know that we matter, that we are significant, that others know we’re alive and benefit this world — because we are human and that’s just the way it is — we seek purpose desperately. When folks resign themselves to their “fate,” then even the seeking stops. Bad news. However, for those moving forward in life, still seeking, frustration grows. In our society, a widespread frustration usually leads to a thriving therapy sector.
Let me make something clear. If you want to seek your life purpose in God, religion, or therapy, I think those routes can help and maybe work for you. If you look for outside confirmation, if you aren’t sure that you have co-created your life Purpose with your Heart, a slice of eternal Spirit, a co-creation with Universe, then you will still doubt and question. Standing up against challenges really becomes a challenge, then.
We have already been given everything we need. No rights or wrongs exist. I don’t even think it’s a one thing for a lifetime deal, necessarily. It can evolve, based on my experience. We grow. We want to make sure we grow in knowledge of Heart by fellowshipping with our Heart.
Last night I referred to dreams, passions, interests, knowledge, skill sets, experience, and whatever else may be applicable. Maybe you’re a list maker. Maybe you’re an emotion-thinker. Left brain, right brain, or like me, brain-drained. It doesn’t matter as long as you discuss any or all of these things with Heart. Evaluate yourself in Heart-light. Hear what you need to. Process your thoughts and engage your mind through Heart. Hear what is being said.
I asked my Heart that night what I would do. I thought about many things for some time. My Heart kept questioning me about each idea. I recorded the final phase of that conversation in my poem, which I have previously published, “The Bird Bath Moon.”
The upshot of my fellowship that night consisted of evaluations, and my Heart asked me what I wanted, what I would wish for if I could do anything. My response was, “What if I wish wrong?” Do you know the taunt I heard? “It’s not a birthday cake!” Then, I heard wisdom. I knew it was from that eternal part of me: “You are creator! Create your fate!”
“I am a writer.” Embodied in that statement from my lips were a number of ideas. My skills as an educator would be used in a different way. My drive to learn, to discover, would be involved in writing. In fact, that night, I had my mind set on poetry. I had already written a number of them. I had no idea I would be writing these daily posts or that I would be at the point of bringing a novel to publication. No idea at all. “I am a writer.”
Let me finish with this. I don’t believe any urgency exists, but I do care for those who are seeking. I am Discovery, and I want those seeking to discover Self and Purpose. I want you to know you create your own fate. Use God, religion, therapy, whatever you need to, but bring anything you do to your own Heart. Make your final decision in the fellowship of the Heart.
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!