Because I was a teacher by training and trade for years, sometimes I get too complicated with my attempted explanations. In the classroom, I always kept digging to get to the least common denominator, but sometimes the route to discovering and understanding that can be rather complex.
At times, I got caught up in trying to explain too much to students about the process. It might have been anything about learning, writing, literary analysis, or reading and research skills. I always mean well, trying to make sure people understand. But when I stop in the middle of my thoughts and efforts and think How would I explain this in a sentence or two to someone, I know I need to get it to that simplest form before sharing.
I suppose I say this tonight because throughout this last year, I haven’t always done that here. Writing and publishing the quantity of work I have doesn’t give me the luxury of time to do that. However, I hope I have helped readers to have insight into my thoughts while helping them to discover some things about themselves. I have felt like I’m just working through ideas with great friends.
I explain this because I have sought to share thoughts about issues I value — things like discovering core Self and creating life Purpose. I have often thought about distinguishing between awakening to Self and establishing Purpose, and I especially have been thinking about how to show Anne Lafarnge’s experience in The Fellowship of the Heart. I want to make it clear, but I realize I have been trying to parse the process too finely.
What I mean is this: awakening to Self and creating life Purpose are inseparably linked for human beings. That was the way it worked for me, and the way I have observed it in others. Awakening acknowledges we have eternal Spirit, we are eternal Spirit inhabiting this body as Heart. The acknowledgement — consciousness in thought, word, and deed of that — is the initiation of awakening. The moment that happens, we want to know the answer to that second great life question: What is my life Purpose? That’s where the most complicating factors come in.
They are complicating because people look for something to fall on them out of the sky or someone or something else to tell them. No, we create it for ourselves. Our awakening acknowledges we are creators, each of us, and we get to choose. The Who, Heart, eternal Spirit in me, came here to experience a Purposeful existence to enjoy this creation. Yes, it is about joy, and for us humans to have joy, we need to create a Purpose and live it.
In that sense, awakening is a continuous process. Heart undoubtedly spoke to us in various ways for years, but we come to that epiphany that starts this whole spiritual process that drops Ego and accesses Heart to be the internal operating system.
Awakening — I like the -ing form of the word, because whether it’s the gerund acting as a noun, indicating a process, or as a verb form in the present progressive tense, it shows a continuing action. Even as a present participle, it’s “present,” it’s in the now as a current description. And to me, that says we initiate and engage in awakening but are never finished in this wonderful, continuing process of living Heart here in our created life Purpose. We keep maturing, growing, learning, knowing. Ann Lafarnge embarks on that journey in the current chapter of my novel.
I see this as an organic whole, but I have differentiated in order to help readers understand the components, as it were. I am, I exist, as eternal creator Spirit in physical form to enjoy the physical nature of creation. And I co-create a way to enjoy it in the form of life Purpose. It’s pretty awesome — not pain-free, but awesome.
This weekend I hope to share some of that chapter I am writing, which is my Purpose.
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!