Over the past few days, I’ve written about the magic aspect of the realities of living a life attuned to all of creation, Nature, the Universe, and Spirit. And over the last seven plus months, I’ve written consistently about the internal conflict that occurs between Ego and Heart in an individual. That internal conflict causes much of the discord, unhappiness, discontent, stress, misery, doubt, fear, and despair — along with many other negative feelings — in individuals.
How many of you either have faced or are not able to answer the questions: Who are you? Why am I here on this earth? Have you ever wondered if you are supposed to be doing something more. Or a thousand other similar questions or feelings. Heart is whispering, sighing, hinting, urging us to choose. I know that conflict, and it’s not like it’s even over because I have answered Heart and come to know core Self.
Now, it isn’t normally some distressing, emotionally draining process. Ego is part of us, our total being, so it doesn’t stop operating; it doesn’t have a pathway when we choose Heart, but it’s always competing. It’s not like Ego is some wicked part of us, some evil spirit who needs to be exorcised in a religious rite.
However, when we don’t make a conscious choice for Heart to process life, then Ego wants to and will take that responsibility. And sometimes, that feels good, and I not only recognize it but allow it. In the long run, this does not usually work out for peace or love.
What I am saying, in part here, is the conflict never goes away, but it is part of our existence in this illusory setting of time and space, and it is not a catastrophe. Neither is it a superiority position of Heart over Ego in terms of this being like a religion. I write and speak and work to help others discover Heart exactly because when processing life via this mode, the things we desire as humans can be known — love, peace, joy, fulfillment, significance. These are the things we live to discover and experience, and it is worth the conflict and choice every moment of every day to choose Heart.
I think that in my past I have heard Heart whispering and pleading with me. I am aware of this even in my childhood. Because I experienced trauma of a few key varieties in my childhood, I believe I was aware of a heart connection very early, but ego fought strongly to try and isolate me from devastating pain; thus, the conflict I experienced was perhaps extra strong. I know definitively that ego helped to develop shadow selves in response to those traumas, and just like Ego itself, those selves do not need to be feared any more or destroyed or discarded, only brought into heart-light so that they may be clearly recognized so they cannot hold me back from bringing my dreams, visions, and joys to fruition. Carl Jung said, “I am not what happened to me; I am what I choose to become.” Yes. Choices. Heart or Ego?
How do I or you keep from allowing Ego and the shadow selves from hindering our growth in peace, love, and fullness? When I was young, if I had read anything like I have written, if I had spoken to anyone who had the sort of wisdom like I view daily on Instagram posts, anything positive and instructive and logical, I would have shouted to my heart to help me, to give me wisdom, to not forsake me. But I didn’t. I dabbled; I didn’t know, couldn’t know as a child, without help. So, I value all that I have experienced, because it helps me to understand and love and embrace souls of any age and any status today with the same struggles.
Part of what I have learned is this: when we hear Heart, we need to respond by pursuing it. Ask questions. Seek wisdom. Know that it’s You. Discover core Self and get a sense of what that Self is all about.
Then, we need to enter more fully into the fellowship of the heart by seeking life Purpose, which isn’t some nebulous idea of greatness, but rather seeking how to express the personal truth of core Self, that unique identity and all of those amazing gifts and perspectives and talents to the world, the Universe — all of those things that abide in the heart of each of us. (Which, by the way, is why I think education needs to be redefined!).
What does the fellowship of the heart encompass? We need to become self-aware, gain a clear, true identity of core Self clearly, which means that we ask questions of our own Heart, speak to Heart, and listen to the responses. Learn to hear the voice. I can’t tell you what it will sound like, but you will know your own heart.
When we know core Self, what that true Self is all about, what our personal truth is, then we need to co-create our life Purpose; Heart, Spirit, Universe, with our mind and soul share in this. This brings us to a point of self-love, love of true, core Self. When we have that, we realize why we are here: to connect with, interact with, and love fellow members of the human race and this whole creation. The question, then, for Heart becomes What do I do to express this core Self to the Universe to engage in love, fulfillment, and significance?
Becoming self-aware helps us navigate these extremes and embrace the co-creation of expressing Self. We should ask and seek the vision of expressing Self. Make it clear, make it real, make it You through the Fellowship of the Heart. Get it so clear in your mind’s eye and emotions and senses that you can easily describe it, talk about it in a few sentences — like three or four.
Then, what do we do? Write the vision down. If you have an aversion to doing that, I’m pretty sure you are operating via ego. Write it down. Write it down. Describe it in detail. Then write down the mission. The mission delineates what you are shooting for.
Finally, write down what you are going to do to engage in the mission on a day by day basis, maybe hour by hour: goals. Now, these goals should not be how the Universe and Spirit bring about the ultimate vision, but our responsibility is to work, work as if it’s our life, our expression of love to the Universe — because it is!
This process continues for me, and it is a joyous one. It is the journey. We evolve, mature, and re-create as we go. No mistakes. Just do it. Just keep moving forward.
No, wait, not forward — Onward and Upward!
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!