Let’s talk personal growth and development today. Volumes of books have been written about this, so it’s pretty obvious this can be complex. Some extensive examination based on an individual’s personality and stage of life could be beneficial. I’m KISS’ing it here, though — Keeping It Short and Simple — by using my little topic in reference to my own life.
I began thinking about spirals as I wrote in my personal morning pages, which are about four times longer than my published, focused page. Specifically, I realized that one of my favorite salutations is Onward and Upward! creates a picture in my mind as a vortex-type spiral.
I considered how I have grown over the years. I came to a point of awakening to myself, to a conscious awareness of the essence and entity of my own heart over the past years, but even looking back, that core was there. While specifics of my beliefs have changed, the faith that there was some force propelling me, urging me, encouraging me, guiding me forward in an evolutionary-type way has not changed. That is because the core is my heart, and my heart has ever been carrying out those functions. Ego interfered with the messages many times, but I kept moving forward — onward — and understanding more — upward. Ego becomes less of a conscious motivation as I move onward and upward.
In the past, I have taken on a number of jobs. I always wanted to learn and grow. That was a heart impulse. I was never content with motivations of safety and security, so I kept moving on. In every job I had, I was driven to become as good as I could be. Ego interfered in that sometimes when I felt in competition with others, wanted to be better. That didn’t always happen, and when it did I at least recognized it as a problem, even if I didn’t deal very effectively with it. My point about this is that as I grew in skills and recognition, my heart urged me forward, not to rest in mediocrity.
Why? I don’t think we are meant to stagnate. It doesn’t mean we jump from job to job all our lives, though. I believe that we are meant to open ourselves to our hearts and discover who we truly are as core Self and then create a vision for expressing that Self. Now, it could be working for someone else or it might be entrepreneurial in nature. I don’t know for you. I do know that being an educator for twenty years allowed me to grow in many ways, but I still didn’t have that self-awareness of a discussion with my own heart — close, hearing whispers at times, being partly there, but not quite fully.
And even though I wasn’t quite there, it doesn’t mean that I did not lead a growing, significant, meaningful life. I did, especially as a teacher. However — and this is key to me — I was not content BECAUSE I didn’t have that self-identity nailed down in order to be creating ways to consciously express that Self in vision and mission, which brings me back to the spiral.
My heart has ever been the core of my spiraling life. Sometimes people talk about “spiraling out of control.” That’s because when someone is spiraling downward, there is a loss of energy and the spiral is not being held in a pattern by a central force or object. My heart has been the force, and in my earlier years, I was kept tight, close to it, because I didn’t know or access its power. I couldn’t let myself get far away, or I would have gone on a downward spiral. My process of moving onward and upward was very slow, but it was happening because my heart, as well as your heart, continues to speak to us. We must direct our conscious attention to the heart, though, if we are to experience an upward spiral of growth.
Engaging in the fellowship of my heart, now, I have been able to move into an ever-widening, ever-ascending spiral because that relationship with my unseen essence, a very real force, grows and allows a pattern to be maintained that keeps me centered. It is not chaos. It is like the patterns of Fibonacci sequence spirals in things like sunflowers, in which the genetic coding acts as the organizing, operational force, resulting in growth that is ordered. Make sense?
My life purpose of expressing core Self, Discovery, expands day by day, even as I write these. Of course, I am still waiting on my novel from my editor. I will admit, the longer I wait, the more scared I get. Is it horrible? I don’t know, but I know I am moving onward and upward.
I hope this analogy of my life to a spiraling vortex helps you discover the powerful core of our lives that our hearts form. Together, we can all be moving, Onward and Upward!
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!