You do understand, don’t you? You know that there are no guarantees in life, right? No guarantees about what is paraded about as truth. No guarantees about — no, I’m not even going to develop a list. No guarantees.
Therefore, when I write about abandoning myself to Heart, following my Heart, I don’t know specifics of what will happen. I jump into the vast, inexhaustible ocean of Spirit energy, leap from the cliff of solid, safe rock of Ego urgings and society expectations. Following the nice, safe path of getting a good job with a good retirement and being dressed and groomed appropriately so as not to raise anyone’s eyebrows or cause them to question what kind of kook I am — all of that is fine. Fine is not fine for me.
Why? Because fine means living for weekends, vacations, and retirement to escape fine. Fine means we don’t act on dreams, passions, joys, and love. So, I leapt. Six years ago. I dove off of that fine cliff. If I had not had Heart working within me, if I had not been hearing those whispers and asking questions, if I had listened to Ego, I would be just fine, but I wouldn’t be here now, writing these words.
To live with abandon to Heart-truth, we — as a friend’s comment about my post reminded me — must jump in. To be all in, we have to take the leap of faith that we have divine Spirit within, wanting to express through each each of us. We don’t sin by living fine lives, but we will suffer emptiness and nagging questions.
In my novel, The Fellowship of the Heart, Eric and Anne Lafarnge have experienced an epiphany in terms of the realization of Heart within them. They know that this acknowledgement might mean their lives will change. Eric has been dealing with this, but when Anne comes to the same place, spiritually, they face the decision to have fine lives or live dynamic lives, ones that may even involve censure or actual danger.
Here is a piece of their interchange as they think about this. Anne is speaking to Eric about his explanation of the way he took his plunge off of that perfectly fine career cliff, not knowing the end or specifics of all that would involve.
“Eric, it didn’t until you said it. This is a spiritual moment for me. I think I know why I heard my heart, that voice. I love working with Kathy and Ed and a team that puts together good work, environmentally friendly work. I think, beyond that, there’s a negative part that resents being used, being part of some conspiracy that I don’t even understand right now, but somehow, because of that voice, I know it. I know Paul and Stan are up to something. In the meantime, I need to be smart and figure out how to go forward with my life. How do our lives work together now?”
“Oh, I think we have to do what is in our minds and souls. We have to consciously speak to our hearts and hear that voice. I have a few times in the past month. But I’ll be honest. Sometimes, because I’ve been so alone in this, I wonder if it’s real and I wonder if there will come a time where I seek the voice and can’t hear it, like it will forsake me, or if I imagined it and can’t conjure up a scenario anymore.”
“Eric, no. It’s real. It must be. Let’s do something about it. Let’s try it together. Tomorrow, after we enjoy this evening and have a good night’s sleep. We have nothing we have to do. Tomorrow is just for us. Okay?”
Fine doesn’t work for me. I can face not knowing the specifics because I’m following my Heart. I live specific actions, but those actions don’t guarantee any specific outcome. I visualize and play scenarios in my mind that produce the emotions I wish to feel, but I don’t know if those visualizations will be what happens. I do know my Heart, though, and that guarantees I will experience those emotions.
While no guarantees exist in the world of fine or in Ego insistence that things must work out very specifically, Heart guarantees spiritual and emotional realities that far outstrip a specific house in a specific place with a specific person and specific amount of money in investments. And that’s fine with me. Not really. The word fine sickens me a bit.
I know my Heart. I know I came here to remember I am eternal Spirit in a mortal body and I’ve come here to feel, to enjoy, to live a life of passion, significance, and love. That’s awesome!
I will explore and value what others say and make my own discoveries. And ultimately, that’s all anyone can do if they live Heart truth. I can offer myself, and if something in my writing resonates with folks, then use it for discovery. If it doesn’t, then at least I hope I’ve helped one to have a smile and sense I’ve expressed love for them in my work. I will write. Guaranteed.
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!