(This continues yesterday’s post, a revised excerpt from my book Superhero You! Discover Self. Create Purpose. available on Amazon)
We deep down long to establish a complete connection with that eternal, spiritual component of Self. However, since we come equipped with Ego, there is this struggle. The struggle is necessary for discovery, because the struggle between Ego and Heart to be our primary operating system produces exploration.
Ego doesn’t like challenge or change; therefore, when we engage in the adventures of life, we know that we operate in Heart-love. We are working to reveal our core Self and personal truth. This is the quest for the Superhero within, for Superheroes discover their true identity. Such discovery requires exploration; it’s not simply having an inherent knowledge of that identity, like we know we’re human. We are driven by that little voice within to search.
For me, I looked in a mirror into my own eyes and knew: “I see You there. This is the real me, isn’t it?” And a distinct voice from somewhere within my mind-soul answered, “Yes, it’s Me. It’s You.” The Superhero.
We hear Heart, and we heed it, because it is our true Self. We sense Heart there, “see” it, and respond. I knew who and what I was heeding and responding to was not Ego, not some self-centered energy living to be noticed and exalted or self-deprecated and downtrodden or anything in-between. Ego influences me to think of how others would perceive me and respond to me. I wasn’t responding to egoic self or to some religious standard. I was responding to Heart, eternal Spirit of all, within this creature of Me.
We have divinity in us, the Spirit of Creator and Love; therefore, we have the question and answer: Who am I? I am, I exist eternally as the energy of all that Spirit is. This instantaneous realization is an epiphany, an epiphany that at core Self we are Spirit, pure energy, true Superhero. And in my case, I experience Spirit-life in the body-mind-soul complex of Michael DePung.
This created life is based on energy, vibrational frequencies that compose the tiniest particles of which we can theorize, and moving from Ego to Heart raises those frequencies. That change fills the void created by operating primarily in the lower Ego frequencies, and we can sense the change in our mind-soul-body complex, our complete being.
We feel good, happy, comfortable in our own skin. This aspect of awakening is also a process of growth in understanding, and it is beyond the epiphany of that initial realization.
(To be Continued…)
How do you feel when you first wake up? A little groggy, perhaps, fuzzy? Or maybe you’re excited and jump up right away because you know something exciting is happening today — and then you stumble a little because your feet and legs aren’t caught up with your thoughts.
All of this is normal when we come to spiritual awakening. We have to shake off the effects of our bodies and minds being in an apparently dormant, self-preserving state. When we recognize, as in a dream or maybe through a literal dream, that we have Heart, eternal Spirit, as part of our package deal, we emerge from a state a dormancy, dormancy produced by Ego, but Heart has been at work.
Others have likened the process to metamorphosis, a transition from a cocoon to a butterfly in several stages. We came here to experience such transformation, to be a beautiful, purposeful, evolving creature, a creature with energy building to maturity while appearing to be dormant.
Core Self, Heart, that piece of eternal Spirit with whom we arrived on Earth, desires us to awaken to our energy, power, and presence — to mature. This is the reason we come to this physical realm: we wish to express, live, and allow Spirit to sense the physical world of its own creation, our co-creation.
Because we needed Ego to help us survive in a physical and social structure, a disconnect happened between our core Self and our mind-soul-body. I think it is a designed disconnect that drives us on a journey of discovery; it’s simply life. The only remedy to reconnection is a spiritually-spurred prompt of this question: Who am I?
Since this is why we came, until we personally face and know Heart, we will sense a void, one causing us to feel incomplete, causing us to question ourselves. Most people at some point in life will ask Who Am I? The answer to that is I Am, an existing physical entity with eternal Spirit housed for awhile in this mind-body-soul-complex, and I personalize Spirit with my physical attributes, my thought processes, and my emotional composition, all expressed in my total life experiences.
[To be continued…]
Now that I have broached the topic of totems, I want to make a few points about the concept. Different cultures and historical traditions call the beliefs by other names and have developed rituals that differ; however, the reason for each of them is the same. We humans have always had a tendency to drift away from the connection to and lessons of nature the more “civilized” we become. This has been true throughout history.
Connections with Nature and the study of her not only helps illuminate our inner person but also gives us insight into eternal Spirit, imbued in all.
Therefore, when folks face those times of questioning, seeking, exploring, and discovering, no deep, abiding, full answers will be had without Nature as a part of that. The energies of life in all of this Universe, in all of this physical, manifested realm, can be accessed by us. Shamanism or other traditions that focus on our interrelatedness with the natural and animal realm opens wonderful doors of discovery.
The understanding and acceptance of totem animal energies in our lives is an awesome, insightful process of enlightenment as the “animal becomes a symbol of a specific force of the invisible, spiritual realm manifesting within our own life (from Ted Andrews’ wonderful book Animal Speak: The Spiritual and Magical Powers of Creatures Great and Small — (Andrews 2)).
I would like to share another story like last night’s; I have many. Last fall, Eastern bluebirds started showing up in the ‘hood. Of course, my neighbor, who I referred to last night, feeds the birds every morning, and I share in that. He had been trying to lure bluebirds for years, so he put out mealworms for them.
Finally, we began seeing bluebirds in the morning at one of the feeding trays — not frequently — and we had to really wait and look. Many times we thought we would see a streak of blue, but we weren’t sure.
Last fall, though, one evening — I have a couple brief videos of this — I heard insistent, almost annoyed birdie chatter. I looked to the other side of my house and four bluebirds were engaged in some little territorial dispute. It ended up fine, and one of the birds stayed and alit on my fence much closer than the others, who were now vanished. I spoke to him and asked him if he had a message for me. I tried to be calm, but a thrill coursed through my body. I knew, but I asked for assurance that if he had a message to leave me a feather.
I really didn’t think that would happen because he flew into the oak tree right over my head without leaving a feather before flying off. However, the next morning I went out, looked up to the branch where he had perched, and my eyes were immediately drawn to the ground at my feet — energy. The feather lay there, a gift from Spirit.
So what? This is what. I had no idea what Bluebird symbolized. I knew, though, I needed to learn. I went to Ted Andrews’ book and found this: “If a bluebird has come into your life, look for opportunities to touch the joyful and intrinsically native aspects of yourself that you may have lost touch with” (Andrews 121). That made me reflect on how I felt emotionally, mentally, and spiritually and brought up issues I realized I needed to deal with and heal over concerting my inner child — another story, another time.
I cannot tell you how wonderful it is when I call for help or when I’m sending out energy of which I am not consciously aware, and my bird totems show up, remind me, provoke me, or comfort me through reflection on their significance. Their energy resonates with my Heart, my highest Self. Gotta tell ya, it’s a meaningful, affirming connection with eternal Spirit and all of creation.
Think about it, and be blessed as you do!
Asking Nature, the Universe, eternal Spirit, and all the Spirit-infused creation to connect with us in a significant relationship that helps us cope, think, evaluate, grow, and learn — among other processes — creates part of a foundation for mental and emotional health and spiritual experience. Oh, plus joy, happiness, comfort! And in this era, we can use a whole lot more of those sorts of connections.
I will share one personal example tonight. The great horned owl has shown itself as a totem bird to me, a bird whose energy plays into my life as I receive it and use it. For several years now, I have unexpectedly encountered Owl right around my house and in the neighborhood.
Here’s my story. My neighbor has said he sometimes thinks I’m full of shit when I refer to my bird totems — kind of jokingly because we are friends — but one evening he came out while I was “speaking” with Owl. He couldn’t believe that if I didn’t hoot, Owl didn’t either. He tried it, but nothing worked. This was no big deal, but I told him Owl and I had a connection.
The next morning, I came back from walking my puppies. My neighbor was outside filling the bird feeders. He saw me standing at the end of the drive with the puppies looking up the street. He started towards me, but I waved him back and put the pups in the yard. Then, I told him to walk back to the front with me and listen.
We heard an unfamiliar sound, not really sure if it was animal or human at first. As I listened, though, I told him it was Owl. He said something like “Yeah, right.” Then, it was “I’ll be damned.” Two great horned owls flew directly at us from very far away — after I hooted. They veered up the street and perched in an oak two houses away. I hooted again, and one of them looked at me, silently and majestically spread its wings, and swooped down no higher than ten feet from the ground flew directly past us and turned its head to look straight into my eyes. It landed in a tree maybe thirty feet away, turned around, and looked at me again.
I said, “It wants my attention.” It traced the same route back to its mate, craning his neck to look at me one last time before the pair flew off. My neighbor was flabbergasted and thrilled to see such a connection with Nature, with a creature.
Owl speaks directly to part of my ability to know how others are thinking, feeling, and what they are hiding. It also helps me in tempering parts of my life. This instance the message of silent, majestic, communicating, effective flight translated to me as “Do your work; powerfully create your magic, and keep quieter about it, about the plans, about the development.” Connections and messages like this result from the energy I work with for empathic and shamanic journeys.
This brings me back to that question for any who would explore Self: how do you relate to Nature and use the power and energy available there to aid them in their life journey? We are surrounded by Spirit. We need to enter into the connections for our own blessing, for the peace and all the other benefits from these bonds can only fill this society, this Earth, with more love and light. I think we need those in abundance right now, don’t you?
Yesterday, I shared the dawn of my spiritual awakening, one which had been forming throughout my life, really. I find it encouraging to look through books with margin notes — yes, I’m one of those — from many years ago and discover how my awakening had been brooded over for decades.
After that night in 2012 — I hope you read the poem “The Birdbath Moon” — many signs started occurring, helpful events that I am sure were summoned to me by the energy which I possessed.
One great help was a weekend conference I attended the summer before that in which the presenter spoke about the pilgrimage known as the Road to Santiago across northern Spain. He had done the pilgrimage, and he referenced and spoke a little about Paulo Coelho’s book on the same topic, The Pilgrimage.
You should see some of my notes in that book and how they led to what would happen within a year. The presenter that weekend wasn’t there to discuss Coelho; his mention of it was simply an interesting side note. I read the book, meditated on it, let it sink in, and thought.
I knew that sort of magic was possible; I knew the experience, the book, and the energy it referenced and contained were all meant for me. I had questioned everything about what I was doing for some time, and I noted the idea of quitting teaching in public education in the book. Little did I know that by the next summer, I would take an early retirement package and start using that energy.
After I retired — and started looking for other work and new possibilities — one day I was walking my puppies up the street. In the book, Coelho talked about omens and nature, so when I saw a flicker feather in the middle of the sidewalk, the energy about it struck me: it was pointing forward. I whispered a thank you, bent down and picked it up, and continued up the street, looking for what I was supposed to see.
Lo and behold, a dove was only two houses up. It looked at me and started hopping. If you know mourning doves, you know how flighty they are. This one stayed on the ground, hopping only eight or so feet in front of the puppies and me. I knew it was leading me. This went on across the front of three more houses and around the corner on the main street. Dove actually led us around the corner!
And as we rounded the corner, I looked ahead and maybe 12 or 15 doves were right in front of us. They saw the dogs and alighted. Except for our guide. He looked casually at us as if to say goodbye and flew to a wire and watched. I looked down and saw the feather he had left.
Flicker and Dove were my first two feathers — gifts from the Universe, from Nature, from these creatures who wanted to say something to me. Magic.
I don’t want this to be long, but I would leave you with an encouragement. If you are seeking, the energy you put out will be answered. Open your mind, eyes, ears, and all your senses and just watch what happens.
I have much more to tell, but for tonight, this is it. Look at my picture. Find the smaller gray feathers and the one yellow/golden and black. Those are my dove and flicker. Oh, you should know that Dove has become my writing muse. Whenever I am slacking, Dove insistently appears — wherever I have traveled. Or Dove has shown itself when I have been nearing completion of projects or embarking on new ones. And Flicker? A woodpecker whose energy speaks of new rhythms of life, of tuning into my own or anyone else’s. Much more here, too, but that is for another post.
I have quite a collection of feathers now — all gifted to me, no purchases, kills, or anything like that. I have seen the feathers fall from some of the birds when I asked for one.
We are all so connected with one another and Nature and the energy of Spirit in all of this Universe. My hope and my vision is multitudes would act on the reality of our integral relationships.
Questions to consider:
How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really?
What is my truth?
How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe?
What would I do with my life if I could do anything?
What is my passion?
Why am I here?
How can I discover answers to any of these questions?
If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!