Technically, I may have hit one year today! One year of what? Of writing and posting this blog every single day. According to my count, which you can see above, I’m not quite there; however, when I go back and look, my first post on medium.com is on February 3. Knowing myself, I probably screwed up the numbering trying to be careful not to fall short of my 365. It’s okay, though, because while I will evaluate some things and may make some changes, I’m still posting every day!
It will take me a few days to go through some of my reflections. (By the way, I will still be working on my novel rewrite even though I’m not posting about that for a few days!) I have learned a fair amount as I reflect over the past year, not only about myself as a writer but also as an awakened and learning person. I know I’m one who jumps on ideas with passion but have a tendency to get bored and burned out rather quickly. I did not, do not, want that to characterize me any longer, which is one reason I determined that I would blog every single day for an indeterminate length of time. I knew in my subconscious it would be for at least a year. Why a year? I knew that would carry me through all holidays, birthdays, social events, and annual charity commitments. I feel it says something about the value I place on myself and making core Self, Heart, known in this world because that is the best way I know to express love to others and contribute positive energy to the Universe. 365 days, no breaks, no vacations, and no repeats shows that I value who I am and what I do. While my work may not be Paulo Coelho quality writing, for producing 600–1200 word posts every night, it’s not shabby — and it’s filled with my mind, soul, and love. It’s an expression of my Heart. Oh, that’s another point for tonight. Over this past year, my running document from this nightly post alone is close to 370,000 words, and that only starts at April 15, 2016. I would add in another 70,000 words for the two and a half months prior. Then, I do my Morning Pages post, which is a core version of my personal writing — always four pages handwritten total every morning — over 1,200 words a day, another 430,00 or so words for the year. In addition, I write another 200 a day that are different for social platform posts (60,000). You know what? This morning I said about 600,000 words for the year, but I didn’t total all this, along with 22,000 new words for my novel rewrite and 11,000 for my ebook. Yep, that’s pushing about 950,000 words for this past year. Okay, until this paragraph, I had really underestimated. What does this mean to me? I’m filled with gratitude for the words, for the ideas, for my Heart and the Spirit and how all of this really works. It’s one thing to have sporadic, episodic examples of manifestation, but this is what all those great people experience who really live the law of attraction. I know the joy of focusing attention, visualizing my Purpose and Vision, affirming and reinforcing that day in and day out in fellowship with my Heart and the Spirit. Life energy flows to where my attention is and manifestation occurs. It freakin’ works! Would I do this if I lived in total isolation, no readers, no responders, no encouragement from others in the fellowship of the Heart? Yes, I would, but I think it would be a lot harder. I will address this again in the next few days, because at times that has been a challenge for me, but I worked through it with my Heart. Even on some days when I would have no responses, I still knew I was doing what I had created for myself, and that holds great value. Publishing every day through the blog and on social media platforms, though, has produced other benefits, not the least of which are two areas I knew I had to work on if I would ever be a successful writer: perfectionism and inspiration, which added together equaled procrastination. My response to those two elements now is “Bullshit!” I can’t write if I can’t be imperfect, if I can’t be me. And if I wait for some sort of mystical inspiration, some tingly sense of energy washing over me that makes all my hair stand on end before words start flowing — yeah, you guessed it: “Bullshit!” Bye-bye to perfection and inspiration. I will say revising, proofing, and being inspired occasionally are necessary for me, but not every day. And there’s the reality of my work for this past year. I don’t want to live my Purpose and work my Vision just sometimes. What, two days a week, three, one week a month? What would be the number? If I am awakened to my Heart, I want that all the time, every day. Does it mean I’m perfect as a person. Nope, no more than my writing is perfect. Does it mean I walk around spouting quotes that end up being plagiarized all over social media? Nope, I have challenges and difficult times, just like the challenges I face getting the words out sometimes. But you know what? I do it because my core Self and my truth are what I have to offer this world. It’s the best expression of my love, as imperfect, unpolished, or uninspired as I may be at times. But I want to do that every day, and I will find a way to do that every day. I hope you will, too, for whoever you are as core Self and for whatever Purpose you have created. If you haven’t done that yet, that’s what my writing is all about. Blessings!
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In The Fellowship of the Heart, two of the protagonists, Jack Actov and Peter Colboard, seem to have things under control; they have plans, contingencies, and connections.
“But they’re the bad guys!” some might say. Yes, and I think this is an important point to understand when we consider the conflict between Ego and Heart. In the long run, Ego does not work for our spiritual good; it does not want us to awaken to core Self. However, in the short term, Ego can help us feel pretty good, can seem to be working, and it may be passed off as just being pragmatic. Some people think that if they experience financial success or gain importance that their lifestyle works. And it does. No matter what works, short or long term, if we never get to the point of knowing core Self AND creating life Purpose, we settle for a spiritual second best. And in some ways, that’s okay, because this life isn’t the end. But to miss out on discovering Self and creating Purpose, it leaves our minds and souls, some parts, somewhere deep inside, with a black hole condensed around those two questions: Who am I? What is my Purpose here? Back to the novel! Actov and Colboard have their conspiracy running. When hitches arise in their plans, they seem to draw the answers from thin air. And this is my point tonight: the law of attraction that works for those who have awakened to Self works just the same for those who have not awakened, even those who have overtly rejected their Heart appeals for acknowledgement. Now, they never directly, not usually, have a conversation with their Heart in which they end up saying thanks, but no thanks. It’s more like opportunity after opportunity arises, and they think they’re smarter because they actively cultivate the shallower work of Ego for immediate gain. It reminds me of the old story of the guy who is trapped on his rooftop when flood waters rose. He didn’t have a boat, but his neighbors saw him and came by in their boat and offered to take him to safety. He said that he trusted God to save him. They told the authorities, and the local police went and tried to get him. Nope, God would take care of him. The National Guard. Nope. He drowned, and when he got to heaven he asked God why He didn’t rescue him. God said, “I sent a boat three times and you refused.” Get the parallel. Heart offers and people turn it down because Ego convinces them there is some greater, more dynamic, more vindicating way. And those people become convinced that whatever they do is justified. Thus, I get a-holes in my novel. However, laws are laws in terms of the natural order. If someone scatters a million dollars from a rooftop, people below are really happy! If someone else rolls a piano off that roof, people below aren’t happy. However, the same law of gravity works on that which brings happiness and that which brings destruction. The law of attraction is the same. We all, awakened or not, contain life energies. When those are focused through our attention, we will draw that which corresponds. Duplicitous, deceitful, controlling, manipulating conspirators will draw the means to carry out their schemes. Their frequencies won’t bring joy, happiness, or anything that uplifts the general spirit and energy of this planet, but they will get what their Ego-desires summon. They push their pianos off of the roof. Fortunately, so will those who exercise Heart-desire, those in my novel like Eric and others. Higher frequencies and the things they manifest raise the levels of positive consciousness and awareness of this world. Those who raise the level of consciousness shower millions onto this earth. We can think the good thoughts, focus and visualize Heart values, and create and manifest blessings. It’s a choice — desperation and possible destruction or blessing. Blessings in the good thoughts, the good visions! Over the course of the past year, I have addressed political leadership and the impact of that on society. I feel strongly about many issues, especially education. I address the underlying psychology of such things in my novel.
When people have no voice in their lives, no ability to determine or live their Heart passions, government becomes a problem. However, when the government deceives its people through a conspiratorial spirit, that government and it’s leaders become dangerous, threats. The outcomes will be either a defeated, dominated citizenry subject to dictatorial rule under the aegis of democracy or open rebellion leading to either class or civil warfare. Smart dictators in a democracy grab various degrees of rule through forging what I have termed informal conspiracies. Through promises of ego-rewards, they enlist the help of powerful individuals, businesses, agencies, and even foreign concerns to prevent expression of the ideas and ideals in the Bill of Rights and the Declaration of Independence. It happens through engineering legislation that legitimizes revocation of rights under the guise of being for the public good and making it appear to be based on democratic principles. Sound familiar? In part, this happens through those conspiratorial workings when legislation is passed or edicts, orders, and pronouncements are made that give voice only to those who agree with the freedom-destroyers. Then, it sounds like the Ayes have it. No voice exists for the Nays. Dictatorship accomplished. When I wrote and even began the rewriting of The Fellowship of the Heart, I never envisioned that things I have seen as possibilities for years would devolve upon America so quickly. Since this has happened, I hope that in some way readers will see the light that I intend to shed on the education scene in general. Over twenty years ago, some of my colleagues thought me alarmist in some ways, although I thought of my concerns as practical and logical. The debacle of a data-driven, test-crazed schools exposes so many problems I will need a whole book to address that (and I will). In the meantime, education becomes a tool for the dictatorial, informal conspirators to manipulate and control society. They know this (and if you don’t think the choice for secretary of education isn’t crucial, you do not know this). With this lead-in, I will share just a bit of what I wrote earlier. _______________________________________________________ “From my research and reading, I know many educators are opposed to this and some are loud and insistent. Why would they target you?” “Eric, when I received the Teacher of the Year award for Missouri, I gained many followers on social media platforms. I’ve been writing columns for local papers and a few in national publications of teacher organizations. Dedicated educators see the threat, but most people believe the government knows what is best for them.” “You are right about that. Okay, I understand more now. I am going to look into this charge and make sure it doesn’t escalate. Until I get to the right people — I hate to ask this — but could you keep a low profile in the social media world?” “Oh, that won’t be a problem. Here is the summons with an extra something from the school district.” Eric took the envelope from Mariela and slid the contents out. “Oh, no, they did not do this! A cease and desist order along with a summons? You are silenced from posting on social and standard media because you endanger the future of children by advising parents to not educate them?!!!” “That’s the way I read it. I don’t really care about this order. I care about the children and the fact I have worked on their behalf all these years and now I’m accused of being a threat to them.” Tears welled in her eyes, and she grabbed a tissue. “Okay, Mariela. I have some work to do. I won’t let this rest. I would like you to think about something. Would you be open to a little vacation? I think you should leave and go somewhere enjoyable with your husband and don’t tell me or anyone else where you are going. It would be good for you and it may cool off those who are apparently tracking your moves. Let them think you have backed off — but I hope you don’t. I will work to give you a voice again.” She agreed and hugged Eric, but before she could even step away from the sitting area, he smiled and gently touched her arm. “Mariela, when were you officially terminated from the district?” “Three months ago. Why?” “This order is dated four days ago! You are no longer an employed educator, and they have no say over you expressing your opinions, as professional as they are. Someone from the state misrepresented you to the judge mentioned here. I’m almost sure of that. My advice stands, but now you can have a more relaxed time. This court order is meaningless.” ____________________________________________________________ I will link this back to the conspiratorial effort to support the current governor, Etts, for the presidential candidacy. They know the power that educational control wields — both short and long term. Perhaps I will share that next development tomorrow. In the meantime, I am thinking about not only the The Fellowship of the Heart but also the possibility of such things realistically occurring. I’m not a doom and gloom kind of guy, but I cannot ignore what I see. How do I deal with it while maintaining balance and positivity? I want to be a light-spreader and love-sharer, functions of living in fellowship with my own Heart. I do not believe everyone has to be involved in political and social issues. Some just are not minded that way, and they determine their Purpose with their Heart. Or they live with Ego as their mind-soul-body operating system and simply respond according to Ego-convenience. Heart guides according to light and love every time. Our challenge is allowing, receiving, and then transmitting that love and light. I think the Water Protectors of the Standing Rock Sioux show Heart-work of shedding light and showing love for Nature. Blessings in love and light! |
Questions to consider:How many times have you asked yourself or simply thought about the following questions?
Who am I, really? What is my truth? How do my actions reveal what I really feel and believe? What would I do with my life if I could do anything? What is my passion? Why am I here? How can I discover answers to any of these questions? If you have considered any of these questions, I hope that my experiences and writing will give you some guidance. Please read my blog and comment and share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you! Archives
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